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maybe you should try to understand what desires in you mind haven't been resolve. It can help to earth down what exactly can help your situation. for example, you should try to ask yourself why you so aware to the details, what's the ultimate goal for you to do so?

also, you can also check, in what condition your partner will leave you? it seems like a very personal questions for your partner than yours.

My suggestions are, ground down and anaylize all your feeling and to see what's going on to its root. Eventually , you know what to do to solve the problem once for all.

the complexity of the vast is so absurd that anything can just be determinism, the guilt for what happened and what will happen disappears, but the anguish of the lack of freedom arises

If you feel comfortable, you should talk about your fears with your partner and tell them about your BPD. It depends on how much they love you, but if you feel that they really love you, then they will accept you for what you are.

cherishyou said: 

But the issues I keep getting is because I am so vigilantly aware of everything they do to the tiniest, most miniscule thing, the moment things are not the same as normal I immediately break down. 

 

I try my best to be perfect so they won't get tired of me but my issues from my past just keep coming up and even in the best situation possible, my brain is still trying to ruin things.

 In the end, we are our own worst enemies. Totally get what you're talking about.
 I hope your heart finds some peace for itself soon.

I’m in this exact situation and it’s rough :/

But I find comfort in communicating this with my partner quite often so the feeling can calm itself a little better. Journaling together or anything like that to get your feelings out can also help. Or just whatever feels right to you. The feeling will be able to calm down, but it will still show itself from time to time. But I say, within time, you’ll find something that’s right eventually <:)

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