I like to watch him, his location, his reactions, his mannerisms.
It became so hard to keep count, and I feel like I should be disturbed by my behavior. He doesn't seem to have an issue with my behavior. But i watch his location, keep notes on what he likes, dislikes, locations, who he's friends with, what he was doing, where, the time stamp, the location paired with cords. I feel like I should be creeped out by my actions. In reality, I just don't feel anything. I know I sound like a cornball. I just can't feel anything when I'm away from him; all I feel is irritated and violent. Then it all goes quiet, and it's just numb.
Diagnosed with Psychopathy and Ocd/Old (obsessive-love disorder)
