I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm failing at everything. I'm about to miss another assignment deadline, I don't now how I'm supposed to get through college at all, I want to drop out so bad but everyone keeps telling me that's like the worst idea. Not just that I can't save my darling either. He's doing worse by the day, both mentally and physically If I could I would just move in with him, get a deadend job but that won't be easy either, We live on two different continents and getting a worker visa is nearly impossible especially without higher education. The one route I had I'm failing at misserably and it'll take years and everything is seems so hopeless, I just want to be with him, run away with him and hold him forever. Why is this world so cruel?