i wish people wouldn't pretend to be yanderes anymore, had an ex girlfriend who genuinely abused me (WITHOUT consent) and used me sexually. and emotionally cheated on me

what does it take just to have somebody at least  be DEVOTED? 

i wondered why am i the only one who is devoted to move across the country, leave my family and friends behind and even show care through my actions and love languages. and apparently it's so FUCKING hard for them to do that. that pisses me off

i just want to be loved, manifest me.

i want to be loved. wanted, appreciated and taken care of as well, i wanted mutual obsession