Yandere Community

I'll follow up weeks later. I generally try to avoid using dere labels, since there boxes are a little too strict, and some of them break up the consistency (gundere, meganedere, nyandere in some forms, etc.) But two or three I believe could apply are Goudere, Yandere(obv) and Dandere.

Dandere has been between 8-10 for me, as I generally just didn't care much for other peoples expectations, and kept a mean poker face most of the time. I did my business, went to have fun, and tolerated people others would probably have instigated something with/have feelings of hatred for. This has kept true for most of my young life, though I have learned to hate. So one step back. Goudere falls in with Yandere. First relationship at 16, I was a ride or die kind of guy and helped her whenever she needed for whatever reason. I gave complete loyalty(and some unneeded stalking) and love, not knowing people are normally a bit more detached. Since then I've joined yan communities on and off.

I've felt intense, yandere-esque love since I was small. I feel love way too hard, way too much. It took a long time to understand and control it. I accept being yandere as part of me now!

It was a few years ago when I first watched Mirai Nikki. I got a bit obsessed with Yuno after that, and that's when I started reading about Yandere et al.

Quickly realised I was Yandere-inclined (and Yandere-attracted) and realised why all my past relationships were never right for me (and probably were worse than no relationship at all in some ways.) I'm still friends with some of my exes, but knowing what I know now I'd never try to get back together with them.

ʜᴍᴍ. ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴛʏᴘᴇꜱ, ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪ ɪᴅᴇɴᴛɪꜰʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ "ᴅᴇʀᴇᴅᴇʀᴇ." ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʜɪᴅᴇ ᴍʏ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢꜱ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ Qᴜɪᴛᴇ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴅɪꜱᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴀꜰꜰᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ(ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ɪɴ ᴘᴜʙʟɪᴄ, ɪ ᴛʀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴏɴᴇ ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ.) ɪ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏᴠᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱʜɪᴘ. ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴀꜰꜰᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ ᴡᴀʏ.

ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ɪ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴀʏ ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ-- ɪ ᴅᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴏʙꜱᴇꜱꜱɪᴠᴇ(ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴏᴡᴋᴇʏ ᴘᴏꜱꜱᴇꜱꜱɪᴠᴇ) ᴛᴇɴᴅᴇɴᴄɪᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴜɢɢʟᴇᴅ ᴅᴇᴀʟɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ᴍʏ ᴛᴇᴇɴᴀɢᴇ ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ, ꜱᴏ ɪ ᴅᴏ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛᴇ ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀꜱ.

ᴏꜰꜰ ᴛᴏᴘɪᴄ: ʙᴜᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ᴡᴇ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴍᴜᴄʜ, ɪ ᴍɪꜱꜱ ʏᴏᴜ. ꜱᴏᴛɪɴᴀ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴘᴏꜱɪᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴡʜᴇɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪ'ᴅ ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʜᴀᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ!