Yanderes.... i once had one, but she gave up and disappeared, i was once new to the yandere thing scared of them and all, now the opposite has happened to be heartbroken by one only for them to chase someone else, i have this feeling of hope/despair and a sadistic feeling to seek out yanderes, what goes on in they're heads, whats the purpose, the cause, does this make me one or just borderline insane... what makes people into yanderes? Truly i yearn for the knowledge?
In a past life, my lover was taken from me. In another, she wasn't even real.
I have lost people time and time again, and I have no true knowledge as to whether or not these events and memories were real or not, and I do not think I will ever be able to know.
But it's my fault in the end, and I am reminded of those failures every day.
I think only you can determine if that makes you a yandere or not. Reading about types of yanderes (like dependence, bizarre seeking, loneliness induction, etc) helped me.
It's also possible to be a yandere that's sadistic and likes to play with their darlings heartstrings. That's the kind I'm interested in. Ultimately love is key though.
I really want to support yanderes and give them love they desire. I am philosopher sophist, and I love to help others get immortal love. As long as it is till death, I find it very brave and heartwarming.
Otherwise, I have opposite opinion on women who just do sadistic things because of childrish mental state.
I would say I am due to an incident that happened almost two years ago (year and half ago), my current partner decided to be friends with their ex who was still into them and I knew about it. In short, it did not go well at all.
I told him what I was going to do if they continued to talk to him, they still did it, I did certain things, I feel 0 remorse, but during that time my insecurity was at an all time high, I didn’t trust anyone around him, I was scared of him leaving me and honestly had believed how that was not an option for him (still isn’t an option to this day).
so yes, I would consider myself one.
I think many factors come into play. Finding Christ was the only thing that healed me as a individual.
I still suffer with trauma and PTSD but it is more manageable.
I have lost relationships and extremely close friends. It has happened time and time again.
Btw, how old was this person you was dating? Because age and development do play a role.
It is my assumption that some individuals try different subcultures to find individuals who best suit their spiritual and emotional needs.
Yanderes.... i once had one, but she gave up and disappeared, i was once new to the yandere thing scared of them and all, now the opposite has happened to be heartbroken by one only for them to chase someone else, i have this feeling of hope/despair and a sadistic feeling to seek out yanderes, what goes on in they're heads, whats the purpose, the cause, does this make me one or just borderline insane... what makes people into yanderes? Truly i yearn for the knowledge?
For me personally what caused it was heartbreak and several severe mental illnesses that have slowly gotten worse over the years. I am generally very very obbsessive in my relationships and tracked people down that have done bad to people I'm in a relationship with, I'd say in some cases it's a mixture of insanity and wanting to love someone? I'm not great and writing but I'd be open to some kind of interview if you're interested.