I am in quite a predicament...
I have recently dedicated myself to my new darling. As of now, I am currently throwing out things that don't serve me, just to be the perfect partner for them. The rough thing is... They have me blocked.
I will admit in the past things were a bit rough between us... When they had feelings for me I was in a relationship and I treated them poorly often. I didn't know how to handle that kind of situation and I ended up handling it very poorly. It's only now, that the old relationship has ended, did I realize how much they truly cared for me. And now I have feelings for them.
I am not sure what to do. Thinking about it, I am not sure if they will ever unblock me or want to care for me again. I've changed, and I'm continuously changing for the better. I would give up anything and everything for them right now if they were to unblock me and give me a chance to even talk to them again. I just want to be able to apologize to them and be able to show them that I've changed and I will do anything for them.
Thinking about it fills me with despair... I don't want to overstep any boundaries of course and I want to be respectful of them but it just hurts so so so bad. It's like an empty void tearing away at my insides. It's karma. I know how they felt now at that time and it's killing me. If whatever higher being is out there could give me one last and final chance, I would not mess it up and I would dedicate my entire life to this person, but it feels hopeless...
Would anyone have any advice by any chance?