My darling broke up with me. It feels like my world shattered into a million pieces, I know my heart did..
I don't know what to do. I don't want him to leave. I know I should let him go but how can I let the most important person in my life go? How am I supposed to just get over him and continue living? He made me so happy. He gave me meaning.
I don't want any of this.
True death is oblivion, which kills the memory of those we once loved.
No matter how true that is I don't want to forget. I want him with me but if I can't have that then at least I want to remember, I rather live with the pain than die to forget.
For anyone interested: he came back, I have my darling back. It actually didn't take long till he asked to try again. He kept checking up on me the entire time too. I only really told my best firend that he's mine again but she wasn't really happy about it. I get it. From most peoples pov that was a terrible decision. I don't think it was. I'm still hurt but I'm happy. It helped us talk about our feelings more openly. Yes I wish it would've happened differently but the past is the past. I need him. I am empty without my love for him. I feel like the people in my life just don't understand my devotion. I don't blame them tho.
I'm still hurt. He knows I'm still hurt and he tries his best to make up for it, so I don't understand why I should just throw him away.
Everything that comes as your decisions, it's only up to you to choose, life remains dormant, but almost everyone I know knows that what makes life important are decisions and how decisions affect your emotions. Its your choice letting him come back, but if something bad happens again you don't need to give up on life, you can be sad, and im one hundred percet sure there will be people on this community that will try to help you emotionally, but.. to make things easier for you, try to prepare yourself if you see signs, and don't blame yourself so much.
