I guess from now on most vents won't be about my darling.
I was really close to doing smth horrible rn and idk.. I'm mostly okay now but I feel like I can't talk with anyone about it, not because they wouldn't listen but because they wouldn't know what to say or how to comfort me. I feel so forgotten.
Really think about it
Think about telling someone?
Oh uh.. I tried to take my life. It has been feeling so unbearable and well.. it didn't work, obivously.
I told my mother cause I thought she would have some kind of advice or could comfort me but all she said is to continue living, continue my everday life like nothing happened. I mean she probably didn't mean it like that but I still feel the urge to try again. How am I supposed to just forget about it?? Idk anymore.. I also told my darling but he didn't say much. My only hope is that I make it till my next therapy appointment and that my therapist can help.
I've been there several times recently, I don't really know what I could say to comfort you other than just I understand. I know what it means to feel like you can't or don't want to continue. I am dealing with the same thing. The only thing I can take solace in, is that there are many many people who do understand. Who have felt what you feel. I was told when I opened up yesterday that real people behind the screen wanted me to keep going. I think it's also worth noting, maybe even more so, that real people behind the screen understand. In a place where you feel like an outcast or unloved or unwanted, being valued for who you are no matter how you may feel or act or what may happen, is the most important thing you could ask for. It's not conditional, it's not just 'push on,' it's you have people like you, you aren't actually alone, regardless of what happens.
