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I bought eight dresses~ i wonder which is the most suitable to wear on a date.
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Perhaps one that is pink and white?
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Vent: Maybe it is dumb, but i wish to have a boyfriend so much. I am mentall very unstable though, so no one ever stays even after making all the promises in the world. I have bpd (i think) it seems a lot like what is causing all this, i medically know i have certain issues. I am often triggered by stress or being left alone already, i don't want people to leave at all. But then on the other hand i unwillingly always push them away so hard when i notice even the smallest wrong in the other and say so many bad things, i don't even want to say, i can't control this myself. I am so scared, i have no one to rely on, i know i shouldn't want a boyfriend while i am like this, but i can't do it alone, i only always have that one person to rely on and love and be fully theirs and they don't seem to understand that if they leave i loose all of my social net, my lifeline, my love, my home. Everyone can walk away so easily from me because they still have other friends, other family, other anyone... i only have god, myself and the person i come to love.. i don't feel safe and i already am trying to get help so much, but the cliniks and people that could help all say they are to full to help me, i don't know how to survive by myself anymore, i don't know what to do.