Usually, it is someone interesting to me. Someone so different from me that urges me to understand her more and more. That make me admire them.
Then, I'll want to protect them at all costs.
I used to go by vibes.. ya know follow your heart kinda deal but five relationships later with very neglectful people often abusive partners who could never love like I could made me realize I didn't want to chase anymore. I wanted to be chased. Because nothing is more isolating than being with one makes you feel utterly alone.
Call me a pick me girl, but isn't it nice to be chosen? Claimed? Kept? Even possessed? I often find myself envious of other's darlings honestly.
I guess how I'd choose now? Is if I was chosen first... then I'd see just how far we can go into the abyss that is love before they fled..
Well--The most important thing in this world is my love for her.
Her name is Farley.
Because her feelings for me made me like her. She fascinates me so much,,,,
I never loved her because of her image, but because of her inner soul.
So she became my darling, my senpai...
(sorry for my bad English)
I do not pick a darling. My feelings guide me, and when I achieve the feeling of "they're going to abandon me and dismiss me so i have to make sure that never happens ever" feeling that makes me feel like I'm dying, I know I'm on that track with an individual--
But I am a very social person, the introverted social type; I like my time alone, but when I'm with people, I am WITH people. I have a wide social circle, and likely, I am already talking to this person actively trying to learn new things. I usually do not treat my darling any differently until that kind of feeling gets too intense to keep inside for long without combusting eheh
