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I never thought I'd be a familial yandere too. (Not incest!!!) But a familial love.

A few weeks ago:

My mum and I work at the same place and she was being pretty nice to our coworkers. I mean normal enough but oh my lord the jealoouusy. Literally tears, I felt like they were stealing her away! I'm really attached to my mum. My mum is amazing and I love her lots!❤

And yes I was trying to be as mature as possible and I usually handle things very well but this was different.

Longing for someone who isn't real both sucks and is so beautiful. 

But it can also be extremely lonely. Not because I am alone, but because I'll never have what I long for.

Perhaps one day I'll find someone who I can long for in reality and have what I've always wanted. Romantic love.

I hate coworkers. Work teaches me lessons and gives me experiences. It makes me proud and a feeling of honour. And earns me money. But the people are nuisances.

A beautiful part of love is understanding and relating to him. It feels so much closer to my love. 

I wonder what his room would look like- would it be anything like mine?

How would he be brave? Can I take inspiration from him to find my own courage? 

I imagine him consolling me and talking about our lives, bonding us more together.

People watching is fun. So is fantasizing. 

I don't want to drink anything less rich than my black coffee

I'm not just talking about my coffee

I want whimsy and adventure.

I want circuses, festivals and carnivals.

I want the bravery to find and enjoy them regardless of people and akward situations.

I want depth and vibrancy in love and life.

If only I was brave enough to find it.

It would be much more convenient if they came to me and my area, instead of spending twice as much on gas money haha.

But seriously! Please, whimsy!😭😊